What do you miss most?

2.12.2014

Before I start my class everyday, I always ask each of my trainees one random question. I figured that it's a great way to jump-start the day as it gets their brains working. It's also a fun way for everyone to get to know each other better. I'd always like to ask questions that would generate positive answers and would make them excited and more motivated to start their new job. I noticed that they enjoyed the questions because it breaks the awkward silence in class and somehow, they're anticipating what the next question of the day will be. 

I thought that I'd like to incorporate that idea into my blog. I will pick one random question every week which can be simple, interesting, inspiring, or thought-provoking. In an effort to achieve my goal of writing more stories this year, I'm making this a challenge to myself so that I can build a sensible content by putting my heart and mind into writing. So starting today and every Wednesday thereafter, I will commit to writing a post in response to the question I've picked. And as a starter, this is my Question of the Week... 

Question courtesy of Thought Questions. Photo by Eduardo Amorim


Flashback... It's 2009. I'm on my 4th year in college at the University of the Philippines and is waiting to graduate.. on time. Yes, this is my goal. I want and have to graduate on time. I don't want to extend my stay in school no matter how enjoyable it is because my parents don't have that much to spend and it'd be better if I find a job right away. I'm an achiever who knows how to have fun. I'm 20, young and carefree, I can do whatever I want and sometimes I don't give a damn. I'm stubborn, kind of. 

 
I love to travel! Whenever there are educational trips in class, I always make it a point to join. At least I can tell my parents that we're required to join or that I'd like to have additional points so I need to join the trip. My mom would surely find a way so that I can join the trip and enjoy my college life. The best so far is our Camiguin trip in Photography class. We toured the entire island in just one day! We went to a hot spring, a cold spring, and my favorite - The White Island! Traveling is so liberating. I want to get lost in a place that I don't know anything about. I want to immerse in other people's culture and travel back to the past and even forward to the future. It's like knowing that the world is a wonderful place to live in. 



On a weekend, this is usually what happens... It's 2am and I'm probably half-asleep. My phone rings or beeps. It's a message from my friends telling me that they'll pick me up at my apartment in 5 minutes. Or it could be my best friends asking me to come over their place to hang out and drink some beer. Two in the morning -- stores are not supposed to sell liquor anymore but it isn't something new -- my friends are always prepared. As always, I'm the one who doesn't know how to say no. So in 5 minutes, I'm ready to go. Hanging out with friends is what we, college students, call the foundation of  friendship. Funny I know. It's not about the beer or the liquor though.. it's about the bonding, the moment, and the time that we spend with each other.

After a slight hangover and a few hours of sleep, we decide to go to the nearby resort. We'd like to swim our hangovers out, only to see another set of beer waiting on the table. Toxic I know. Then again, it's the foundation of our friendship. 

Come Monday, we don't have a class. We have a four-day school week in the university and that's when we catch up on sleep, watch some tv series, and eat instant noodles, and text mom or dad for an advance allowance. 

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Fast forward to 2014... I'm a mother and a wife. Plane tickets to places all over the country and abroad are sold like pancakes, there are promo fares here and there. I have a credit card to book tickets but I don't always have time to travel. I have to check if I can file a leave from work and check my responsibilities before flying away. Sometimes, I have this need to travel alone.. just like before.. but I can't anymore. I just can't leave Reiko. I can't stop thinking about him. Last year when I traveled with my friends from work for 5 days, surprise!! Reiko already had a big wound on his face and two bruises on his forehead. See what happens when I'm away? So there, traveling? I have to come up with a better plan to make everything work for me and my family.


Now, when my friends call me at 2am to spend the mornight drinking with them, I have to ask permission from my husband who will most likely not allow me to go, which is also understandable. I can't just get drunk and have bad hangovers. What if Reiko wants to play with me and I'm tipsy or intoxicated? I'd probably never forgive myself. So you see, if you're to ask me.. I miss the freedom and spontaneity -- the ability to be flexible and just be anywhere at anytime or be in two places at the same time! That ability to get lost somewhere out there in the middle of nowhere without thinking of anything and worrying about something. I can't anymore. I have a bigger accountability now... But that's not to say that I regret choosing what my life is today.

Yes, I miss a lot of things from 5 years ago but this does not mean that I don't love what and who I have now. Whatever has happened in the past contributed to who I have become. I did graduate on time. And I got hired to work even before my graduation. My friends and I? We have grown.. emotionally and mentally. I've become more independent, more aware of my mistakes, and more responsible. I'm not saying that I'm not free. In fact, I am. Like what I always say, I have a choice everyday. But there's always a need to compromise to make things better for myself and for the people I love. Which is good. That means I have social awareness -- I'm part of a bigger world and even my smallest actions can affect anyone. 

How about you? what do you miss most from 5 years ago?

20 comments :

  1. Darn it, I can't remember what I was doing 2009. I moved to Aspire I think. My son was 4 years old (and we only had one kid then). Perhaps I don't miss it too much because I'm quite contented with how things are going right now.
    I totally understand how it feels to leave your kid for a while. It is hard. I remember when my husband and I went to Boracay, I had to call everyday to know how things were going back home. I also declined an opportunity to travel abroad (all expense paid) when my son was 3 months old. Because I. Just. Couldn't. Do. It. :D
    Fast forward to 2014: I still enjoy a couple of drinks once in a while with the husband. We go out on dates as soon as the kids are asleep with the nanny which is around 12mn and we go to Manggahan which is like 500 steps from our house. hahahaha.

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    1. Wow!!! 500 steps from Manggahan? Good for you, that's like a home away from home! LOL. I'd probably won't accept the travel abroad too if my kid is that young. I didn't even attend my brother's college graduation in Bataan because my son was only a month old that time. Sayang ang all expense paid but still! family first! Hehe.

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  2. Aww, it's a walk down memory lane. Five years ago, just like you, I'm a graduating student. I'm having my internship and I'm at the office almost everyday. I miss my block-mates and close friends a lot 'coz we barely see each other due to our OJT. I miss our daily dose of laughter and "backstab-ban" (that's our take to the asaran/laglagan-walang-pikonan moments). We always have something to laugh about, maybe because of our guy classmates who always start the fun. We're very much outnumbered by the guys so there's no room for just a little chitchat, we always join the fun and ride at each other's quirks. That last semester in college was really a preparation for us to what the newly grads call "the real world". (Segue) Travelers/backpackers will agree to you that traveling is liberating that's why some people left their job to travel, experience different cultures, and discover more about themselves.

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    1. Seems like you really enjoyed your college life! Same here, how I miss those days when we all just think about nonsense stuff. LOL. I guess in my group, guys are outnumbered by girls.. and gays! I really hope to travel soon!! :)

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  3. Five years ago, I was pregnant with my first! We lived in a rented condo and our dog was still alive. It was winter in New England, though. Yeesh.
    I guess I don't miss being pregnant AT ALL, but I miss the mystery of wondering what life as a mom would be like.
    It wasn't the best time for me so I'm just so happy to be here right now!

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    1. Aww sorry about your dog. I don't miss being pregnant either, I think it's because I don't really have that mindset right now. Being a mom is exciting and nerve-wracking. So glad that you're happy with your current place though! :)

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  4. Oh wow, now this gave me something to ponder. In 2009, I was a full-time student and part-time working at the school I attended. I was planning a move with my then two babies and fiancee'. Gosh, that seems like just yesterday. I never knew I'd be moving again or having another baby. What a difference 5 years make!

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    1. Oh yeah, 5 years seems to fly so fast but if you go back and reminisce, you'll realize a lot has happened! For sure, you've been such a great mom Dre! Thanks for sharing!

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  5. Oh, I miss a lot of things.. but I'd rather not get into them.. as they are my private feelings (well, private enough for the Internet anyways haha) and we will be here tomorrow once I start :P I think you've got great perspective.. and indeed, children bring certain responsibilities and sacrifices.. also.. trust me... the partying and drunken nights.. you'll grow tired of them. You won't grow tired of your little man (or your big one, I hope haha). Thanks for the insightful post :).xx

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    1. I already grew tired of the partying and all actually, haha! I don't go out that much anymore. I just spend my time home with my boys. Thanks Natasja..

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  6. 2009 would have been my last year at uni! I miss it so much, university was my favourite time of my life. I would love to go back to those times, it's so much fun and you always get to hang out with your friends!!

    Corinne x
    www.skinnedcartree.com

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    1. Aww we're just about the same Corinne! I'd definitely love to go back to those times too. Time flies soooo fast! :)

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  7. Spring 2009 was my freshman year in college!! I was very homesick for my family but by spring I was starting to make some new friends at college...including this guy named Angel who I married the next year... :)

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    1. Wow, looks like you had so much fun. And it's cool to know that you found the love of your life in college.. :)

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  8. Working. As much as I'm ok with being a Stay at Home Mom, I miss bringing home an extra paycheck. I would've saved more cash. Other than that, there's not much I miss about 5 years ago. I was in a dark place then. Thank you for sharing with Countdown in Style.

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    1. Thanks for visiting April! I would want to try being a stay-at-home mom but I'm so used to working outside.. I'm sure you're doing just fine being a SAHM. :)

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  9. 5 years ago I was in grad school for translation. I didn't finish that program though because I decided it wasn't for me. I left it a year later. I was also in a relationship with a guy that I knew wasn't for me, but I was staying because of several factors. I finally broke up with him later on that year. I actually met my husband a year after that :) I don't wish I was back in that time period at all. I love my life with my guys right now. :)

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    1. Aww, me too! I'd rather not go back to that kind of life I had 5 years ago, I didn't see any direction back then. And it's good to know that the past we had molded us to who we are now. :)

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  10. 5 years ago in 2009 was a very HUGE year for me. I had my daughter, I became a mother. I got married, I became a wife. I was kicking butt in my professional career. My friends were all getting married, too, so it was nonstop showers, bachelorette parties, and weddings! Thanks for this fun prompt that took me 5 years down memory lane. I agree with you - all those things led me to where I am today!

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    1. Yeah, isn't it just SO fun to see most of your friends getting married? It seems like it was only yesterday. I get overwhelmed when someone I know is getting married. 2009 was indeed HUGE for you while I.. was just starting out. :)

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